"Who are you?" said the Caterpillar. This was not an encouraging opening for conversation. Alice replied, rather shyly, "I - I hardly know sir, just at the present - at least I know who I was when I got up this morning, but I think I must have been changed several times since then."
~Alice's Adventures in Wonderland - Lewis Carroll
This is a question that I have been struggling with. Who am I? Though lately, this really hasn't been a struggle, I am finding out who I am, while undergoing a rapid transformation. He has been aiding me, assisting in the process, this is because He has always known me better than I know myself. But maybe that is changing, I am on a journey of self discovery. I am allowing myself to be who I am. I am not censoring or rejecting my thoughts and desires, I have been embracing them. I have also been surprised, not at the things I am willing to do, but at the things that I truly desire to do. This shift in the paradigm that defines me, has left me marveling, wondering, and trying to figure out the cause, as well as the process.
The process is a spiritual one, determining what drives me, motivates me, what I need for fulfillment and completion. Is this new found path of enlightenment incongruent with my spiritual beliefs? No, I haven't found it to be. Though some of these thoughts and desires may have been previously rejected, out of morality imposed by society, I find that is not my morality. Nothing I am considering, wanting, is harmful or dangerous to anyone, especially not to me. Knowing and accepting myself for who I am can only facilitate my accepting and comprehending others. I believe that this facet of myself has existed all along, awaiting validation and affirmation, in order to become a more influential presence in the complexity that is me.
I Am That Which I Seek
I am that which I seek.
I am the seer, the known and unknown. The lover, the light, the bliss.
I am the unconditional one beyond judgement, scorn or criticism.
I am the whole self, filled with the love of a thousand lives and the wisdom of the ages.
I am the water that shines, cleans, flows through and surrenders.
I am the earth that holds all of us upon its glorious strength.
I am the wind that carries the voice of God - sometimes as a profit, often as a whisper.
I am the light of my soul and the connection to all souls.
I am the truth, for I have already lived the lies and won my freedom from them long ago.
And while at times I may forget and scan the periphery for a sign of me,
When I am quiet, when I am free, I remember, I am that which I seek.
~ Jenifer Shapiro
And, as I have always been a quote whore, I will allow the words of others to emphasize what I am trying to say.
Between stimulus and response there is a space. In that space is our power to choose our response. In our response lies our growth and our freedom.
~ Viktor E. Frankl
We cannot change anything unless we accept it. Condemnation does not liberate. it oppresses.
~ Carl Jung
Any human anywhere will blossom into a hundred unexpected talents and capacities simply by being given the opportunity to do so.
~ Doris Lessing
This actual world of what is knowable, in which we are and which is in us, remains both the material and the limit of our consideration.
~ Arthur Schopenhauer