J came to see me this week. I know He has been tremendously busy; I did not expect to see Him for awhile. I had resigned myself to that fact. I have been missing Him and wanting Him incessantly. When I am with Him, everything is right in my world. I want to make everything right in His world as well, at least to the best of my ability. I am happy, I am loved, I am special. I am basking in the afterglow.
Don't get me wrong, my life is good, I am blessed and happy. His presence in my life is the icing on the cake. He has made me a better person. He has fulfilled me in a way I never thought possible. Even when He is not here, He influences me. Our relationship, His dominance, encourage me to be better, to do more, to appreciate every aspect of myself and my life. I constantly strive to be the person I want to be. I never quite get there, but I am improving. I do not chastise myself for falling short, I just keep trying. Little by little, I am getting better about things. Little by little I am becoming who I want to be...for me...for Him.
Every time I am with Him, I am grateful. I feel like I have won the lottery. I feel lucky and blessed. He is good to me, He is good for me. I don't know if I can ever give back to Him as much as He gives to me. He has been a guide and mentor to me on my path. He has been my protector. He strengthens me, He enlightens me, He loves me. He accepts me as I am. He pushes me to become more. He loves me for who I am. I delight in Him, I admire Him, I trust Him, I love Him.
I am a spoiled pet, I am cherished, He honors me each time He grants me His presence. He makes my spirit soar. He sees things in me no one else sees. I am beginning to see them too. In His arms, under His hand is exactly where I want to be. I am His, always.